talks in the middle of the rain, longing, and contemplation

thus, we in our twenties, will fly thee souls.

I have told you that life been funny, lately.

 

that somehow I found myself alone sitting at the bar club

or dance in the middle of dancefloor of a club. alone or with accompany

or I pour myself some shots of tequila

or sipping my 3rd cups of coffee this night.

gaping with current relatives

or making new engagement with old friend

talk about latest gossip

or both express selves longing in such manner of current things evolving around selves

 

life been funny lately

and some thee souls in their twenties, sitting munching sweet dessert treats during light rain

crapping about longing of things evolving around them

how’s they life turn out

and how it was started

the expectations, hurts, and ‘dude I never expect this one’

changing faces on their selves life

til they reach this particular point

and daze

 

for oneself, she feels she’s been suck up into such worm hole and skip times speaces to be in present moment

for him, it’s just scary how times and spaces goes along the way

 

and how in the instant moment, things around them evolve

their own selves thought of own selves concern

 

for her, a closure

for him, a waiting

 

and thought of their shared concern

about one soul they care about

about one soul whom life been rolled up away

and how things evolve around them.

 

they are tired but restless soul

and thus need solitude for resolve

 

she thinks she need a tranquility thru times of contemplation

he thinks he need to making himself stable and firm, that he thought he isn’t

 

ah dear.

 

life been funny lately

and they munching their sweet treats, savoring it.

 

 

Hours went by

And I’m still sitting here

Sipping up my 3rd cup od coffee

And left empty bottle of wine at the corner
But I’m still here

Barely come to closure

But willingly to gain one

Was taken between 12 til 3 a.m. at Southbank

Oh dear life.

You’ve been funny lately

You are never been firm

And I was shaking by

And by the way. 

Lately

I am so down to your chaotic tunnel

How funny

And yet I haven’t found my closure

I am disclosure.

And in my exploring path of mine how to find my closure, a zen

And… The fuck I found myself sitting at the bar club.

Alone.

I arrived way too early. 

It’s half to midnight

And I think the party people still getting ready on their crib

Making them eyeliner sharp enough to kill

And shit I think I have to wait a really long time to dance away my shit

And I already sip some to forget

Yea I’m a dead gaada gaya one. Damn shit.

What these weeks brought me to.

The things evolving around me is driving nut

I started to lose my sanity

Thus here I am

Bluntly daring myself to jump into thump of EDM music, flashing lights, and fog of smokes. Alone.

I mean. What the. 

Bumping myself to strangers.

Getting lost in beat.

Staying sobber.

Within the light and beating beat

I not yet found my closure.

Tho I enjoy jumping around

And flashing lights please me

But as I taking some moments to breath

Wave of unsure hit me up again.

And I know I still in disclosure.

So I say good bye to those strangers.

And lights.

Order Uber and hit back home.

I thank God my Uber is doing his job well.

And not taking any beneficial from a late girl almost snoozing off at the back.

So, dear night beaty life

You are fun. 

But you are not my closure.

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There are some things I would like to keep

And let no world to come and spoil

To dwell and sway

In spaces and times remains

Within

And me as God

 

My dear,

My dearest

Cookies on every fortune

And still, a gentle of happy place

 

How much the grateful saying been out

That our encounters is kept within spaces and times

And me as God

I will never let the world spoil it

Ever.

 

Oh my dear

My long curly hair tan skin and depth of abyss eyes dear

I am in longin and you’ll probably sick with this longing

And I’m committed to my longing towards you

 

As I recall

Between booze, smokes, and people

We danced away and sway

I dwell within

And will never let the world spoil.

 

I’m an egoistic bitch and arrogant when it comes to you.